I
cannot guarantee this blog will make you feel happy or warm and fluffy
inside. Well maybe after some reflection, self loathing, and confronting
your own hypocrisy. My intentions are nothing but positive and I will
aggressively employ exaggeration and colourful words to define this
harsh reality WE ALL live in but experience 1000% differently through
our very different perspectives.
And
if you’re offended by my choice of words then please, stop being so
selfish. This is my piece and these words mean what they mean to me. You
know what I mean?
ANYWAYS
Life
moves waaay too fast now a days. Our lightning quick minds can handle
it but often times our moods take a back seat to the task/app at hand,
or in your case the task in hand.. </masturbation joke> Western
culture is so shallow that all anyone cares about is what you’re doing
and what it looks like: fuck the story and your feelings, pics or didn’t
happen… (a Diary vs. Instagram). But really if you haven’t checked your
phone or looked for an info-graphic to simplify my message yet then I
applaud you on your self control… Although you missed Amanda post
something pseudo-inspiring or cute with kittens on facebook just now.
Teh OMGZ CHECK!! CHECK!!
Before I go on I should mention my Dad was depressed for a good 18 months or so a couple years ago. We tried just about everything: pills, SSRIs, prozac, talking therapy, Electro Shock Therapy! Its scary shit, especially that his fate was up to the discretion of a family Dr. in rural Canada. I was super confused and mad at his behavior when it started. None of it made any sense. Worried about money that we had plenty of. Emotionally I distanced myself from it. It was the only way to cope. I just had to learn to laugh at it and support my Mom throughout the time. I did my best to support my Dad but in his state he was a depressing and hopeless vegetable. I know its outrageous to call my own Father that but let me tell you: whoever that was, was not him. I know my Dad had some more deep seeded issues he was dealing with but what he claimed to be worrying about seemed so absurd and delusional that I could not help but laugh after some point to keep my spirits intact…. BUT hes made a full recovery! Some pill coupled with Prozac did the trick!! Also we got a new puppy at the time so maybe that helped!
I
think I used to be depressed. I am not really sure. It was more like a
endless cycle of recreational drug use and University-induced critical
thinking (translation: weekend alcoholic, serial chain smoker, evening
stoner and part time conspiracy theorist). No matter. I got over myself
with a heavy dose of Zen study, music I enjoyed, my own will to get
better, and more weed…. You can always use more weed.
Since
my heavier drug days (College/University) I have smartened up quite a
bit. I am more in touch with myself and what I want out of life, I am
happier and mindful on a day-to-day basis, AND I know what breakfast is
for! It’s your first meal of the day!! Have you heard of this shit!!??
amazing.
But seriously.
Everyone’s life is relative to their own experience and being a privileged white football player type (MEATHEAD) the only dark place I really came out of was my own over indulgence of everything from video games, bong tokes (with tobbacco), alcohol and other drugs , oh yeah and sleeping the fuck in.
But seriously.
Everyone’s life is relative to their own experience and being a privileged white football player type (MEATHEAD) the only dark place I really came out of was my own over indulgence of everything from video games, bong tokes (with tobbacco), alcohol and other drugs , oh yeah and sleeping the fuck in.
This
is the only struggle I faced growing up in suburbia. No abusive
parents, No creepy uncles, No Crime. Just awkwardness. Well that and
sneaking around town to smoke pot, endless hours of video games and kick
the can.
If
you’re anything like me, when your life becomes too simple, good, and
well at the moment your mind will find conflict by clinging to
something, anything, to find excitement to get worked up about… There’s
something scary to the ego about having everything you want and being
content.
Up
to this point you have probably deduced that I have ADD OCD and a GREAT
number of other physiological disorders. But back on topic. Throughout
this blog ill be pontificating about pop culture, societal norms, gender
roles, Hollywood, and other stuff that pisses me off and feel I really
need to get off my chest… but this first post is about the practicality
and necessity of having a positive attitude. This shit is hard work but
pays off… Unless you are rich and famous already. Then you can cry all
you want… Unfortunately.
This
was Justin Bieber’s last album with a big sad face on it. I often see
celebrities and even rappers like Drake project these defensive sappy
attitudes being over-sensitive to peoples’ criticism and complaining
about how hard their life of stardom is. “You don’t understand”! “Poor
Me!” (This perpetuates Bully-culture btw.. different post doe)
I
gotta say I have no sympathy for them. They’re rich, famous, and can
(practically) fuck anyone they wanted. Why the fuck are you crying about
it?? PLease tell me what is so hard about your life?? You can’t decide
which model to fuck? Which Lamborghini to buy? People are judging you
when they don’t even knoooow the reeeal yooou??
Boo fucking hoo That happens everyday now to regular people thanks to
facebook. But I will agree that dealing with paparazzi and the dreaded
entertainment news media is a much more terrible walk in the park.
But the reason it pisses my pants upsets me is because these people are ROLE MODELS.
Scary thought I know. They have everything they have ever wanted and
more and are approving and perpetuating this mental practice and
mentality of “Feel Sorry Yourself” “Its ok to Mope!” “Its ok to feel
like the world is after you”! “Its ok to be passive while your problems
get worse” ☹ “Its A.O.K. to feel like a helpless victim! Don’t Worry get
Worried!!”
Makes me sick. “Yeah take things negatively! Be a victim of the world and your situation.” …. Talk about herding sheep.
And
for any readers who feel like sticking up for these celebrities, be my
guest. Unfortunately you are “Star struck” and actually believe the
sensationalized position these regular people have in society makes them
special. Johnny Depp’s shit smells terrible. Like WAY WORSE than most
regular people’s shit. Jus saying.
And no I am not picking on them, I am simply pointing something out. If I was picking on them I would be working for TMZ.
Other than having symmetrical faces, being in pieces of music and media that you have liked or identified with they have not done SHIT for you.
Most of these songs that have “Saved your life” are probably not even
written by the actual artist (its called ghost writing). For all your
brainwashed-mind knows, these movies you truly Love
with Ryan Gosling only torment you more and make you more insecure
cause you worry if you will ever have a “Notebook” moment in your life
(YOU WON’T).
And this popular feeling ‘depressed’ trend only encourages you to feel sorry for yourself more often which justifies your self-pitying and shitty-attitude in general. Its like a fucked-up “poor me” fantasy they’ve created. Thanks Hollywood.
And this popular feeling ‘depressed’ trend only encourages you to feel sorry for yourself more often which justifies your self-pitying and shitty-attitude in general. Its like a fucked-up “poor me” fantasy they’ve created. Thanks Hollywood.
Negativity exists.
Its a huge half of the universe. Its half of everywhere and half of
everything. I’m not saying: stop being sad, stop feeling sorry and stop
feeling down. That’s impossible. Being a human you cannot deny your own feelings. It’s unhealthy
and if you don’t face emotions head on they will find a way of
manifesting somehow, just look at school shootings (oops too real?).
When a feeling comes on, feel it. FEEL it so
entirely and completely from the moment it hits you. I got to say this
is the best with positive emotions. BUT when its a negative or a
confusing emotion its most important to LEARN about this feeling you are
having, where it comes from, and for further insight monitor the NEXT
few THOUGHTs that come into your head. Whatever these almighty thoughts
are, do NOT take them as fact. You are an impulsive ape, just like me,
and no amount of University, Drugs, or Reason is going to make you
un-bias and unemotional; especially in a emotional and impulsive
scenario. You are designed that way by default. Being an animal with an
ego we ALL want to be right, and the center of attention. The truth is
we are not perfect, practically know very little, and we will ALWAYS
make mistakes (were all going to die too:)
Think about: what you’re thinking about
and what emotions these thoughts stemmed from (this is called:
meta-cognition). Do yourself a favor and Shut up the part of your mind
that says “I can’t do it”, “poor me”, “I could get better only if”, “one
day someone will notice me and realize how sad my life is.” News Flash my friend: they fucking won’t. They’re going to keep watching football and eating chicken wings. Sounds lazy but YOU are
being just as lazy, finding the easy way out, complaining about shit
and being negative about life excessively. The real reasons you do this
are simple: you’re bored and you’ve made a habit of it.
I
have had allll of these same thoughts before and the weirdest fucking
thing is that… they feel good. For the moment the feeling comes on it
feels good to suffer and feel bad.. for some reason. Maybe its the sad
accomplishment that we have decided that we are worthless. Resolved and
kinda happy because we now have ZERO responsibility over anything.…
Its
fucked up man. Its a very weird security blanket that short circuits
our ego to make napping for days at a time justifiable! but REMEMBER
KIDS this all always comes back as terrible waves of real depression
based on regret and a low self esteem coming back hours, days, or even
years later.
Preach Alert:
Stop justifying your shitty attitude. Stop blaming other people and
things for your mood and situation. OK: Some thing(s) may be true and
some thing(s) may have happened but a lot of what you think in your head
could be complete BULLSHIT that you made up <<< consider that.
People invent their own problems and own self-fulfilling prophecies in
social situations and health issues, just by worrying about it and
thinking negatively. When you are upset about something, first question whether that something
really exists and why it exists and then its up to YOU, and how you
control YOUR emotions and thoughts that will prove how you deal with
life’s situations and will in-turn define your character.
That’s been your self help book rant of the day.
The
only difference between people and their behavior is what they think
about. The richest and most successful people have 2000 thoughts a day. I
want my thoughts to be the same as theirs. Not a drugged up Justin
Bieber or a self congratulatory rapper who talks about how “real” he is.
And
just think… The world is so fucking exciting right now!! Robots,
Holograms, House Music, Terrorism. Sure there’s a lot of terrible things
going on. But there’s also a lot of new and amazing things going on
everyday to help it! Don’t you want to be a part of the future?
Something cool? The information of the world is literally at our finger
tips yet we frequent the same 4 sites listening to the same music posts
from the same people because its familiar, easy and makes us think we
are “cool”. Let me clarify a lot of my angst and accusation are at
privileged kids I grew up with :D. I am only speaking to the worst of
certain people I have met. And I don’t mean individuals, I mean traits
of certain people that I have met and traits that even I possess.
Being
exposed to any amount of our hyper mediated world can make you a victim
of these trends. Its funny cause the word “brainwashed” doesn’t come up
so much in pop culture anymore. Then I realize every form of persuasion
and entertainment could be seen as brainwashing (even the positive
ones).
Being positive and having a
positive outlook on your self and future is so paramount to happiness
and success that it should be part of the school system’s curriculum. It
may sound silly but I am sure it is not hard to find truck loads of
evidence on how our current school system is failing us. Also depression
almost has more followers than JustinBieber now. Fuck.
The Cliche Graze:
Take a breath, and look around and look for something missing in your
life other than a partner or materialistic bull shit. Something that
sparks an interest inside you, this is where real passion, real
appreciation, and real happiness comes from. Be grateful for what you
have and become part of something worth while that you TRULY care about.
Don’t know what you care about, go for a fucking walk without shitty
music in your ear and turn your mind off and just be. Just breathe.
BOTTOM
LINE: Feeling sorry for yourself is not fucking cool or appropriate.
Unless you think Kim Kardashian is cool, in which case let me do you a
favor: http://www.wikihow.com/Tie-a-Noose
